My Body is Wonderland.

I hate John Mayer. I think his voice is the voice of a dickwad. He pretty much deserves to be punched in the teeth with my fist.

I do realize his voice has nothing to do with my body though.

Today it hit me, why is it that I am overweight? I eat half way decent. I am moving all the time. I drink water by the gallons.

The doctors tell me that between the Tubal Ligation Syndrome and the PCOS my metabolism is nonexistant. I cannot take the diet pills due to the Seizure Disorder. I have to figure my body out on my own.

Yay.

I still have not completely kicked my Diet Dew habit. It is my weakness, and BOY am I weak! I need to completelt let the pop go. I have almost completelt eliminated the sweets and I am working on my diet. I am going Low GI due to the insulin resistance. I know I can do this.

I also want to find someone to bust a move with... like someone who knows what the hell they are doing. ANNNNDDDD I want to eventually learn Yoga!

I also just want to get to a point where I feel better.

Emotionally I have been feeling pretty good lately. I think my hormones may actually be settling down a bit.

I suck.

Yes, this I know. I havent updated this blog in close to two months. Life has been nuts and our routine has spiraled out of control. From this day on, I am going to attempt to update this twice a week at least.

Since last I blogged, shit has hit the fan. My Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome has become out of control and I found out that I know have Tubal Ligation Syndrome due to my tubal. Basically in a nutshell this means my hormones have gone completely crazy. My body thinks it is pregnant, I have no metabolism, I am in pain all day long and I have reached a stress peak.

I'm not giving up though.

I can do this. I can beat this. I am formulating a plan and making some changes.

Stick with me. Help me. Motivate me. I need you and I need me.

We wish we could touch our Bowflex.

Well... we have been drinking our water and now we will slowly be cutting out white carbs. It's hard cause this family is all about the bread and pasta and pizza!!! We are working on it though. We bought a couple of books on clean eating and have been doing loads of research. I know we can do this. We NEED to do this. It is for the greater good of our family.

Right now the Bowflex is tucked into the back of the garage, totally consumed my boxes and baby gear. Our goal is to get to it by May, in the meantime I will be starting walking in the mornings and evening and doing cardio in the afternoons.

Keith is planning on running once a day for now.

Yes I know... he is kind of killing our thunder huh.

Once that bowflex is free he will be adding that to his regimine.

I'm floating away.... well to my bathroom anyways.

Today starts the "increased water drinking day" for Keith and I. Our goal is toget at least 8 glasses of water into our sad, dehydrated bodies. When a persons body is lacking H2O they suffer from a slowed metabolism, headaches, oily skin and hair, sore muscles and joints as well as many other things that I just dont want to take the time to type.

Keith likes his Mountain Dew and I love me some Diet Dew. They are a few of our weaknesses. I also love Crystal light.... but that is still not considered water. My body is in need of a detox.... a detox of all of the years I have been punishing it with OTC medications, soda and processed and fried foods. Keith's in the exact same boat as me. This is all very overwhelming, so we are taking things one day at a time... and slowy purging our home of "the bad".

Keith's being a pretty good sport thus far.

But today is just a water day :)

And then I said... "let's fix this!"

One of the joys of having three very small children is that you start to forget you are much more than a mommy. All day and night you cater to your family... bottle after bottle, diaper after diaper (and pull-ups), meal after meal, rocking in the chair, naptimes, playtimes, the room is actually spinning as I think of everything! I have reached a point where my hair is falling out again and I am so incredibly stressed.

I love my children and I love my husband, but we need to make a few little tweeks around here. First thing we have been working on is a better bedtime schedule. Gone are the days I am going to allow Bo to be up till 2 am. He gets lain down in his crib by 10:00 pm every night whether he likes it or not. He yells and constantly tries to wake up Gage and Cote, but we are sticking to our guns. I cannot remember the last time I got more than 4 hours of sleep for two nights in a row... thus the importance of this endevor.

Next... Keith and I are working on reconnecting as a couple. Keith returned home from the second deployment on Christmas Eve 2009. No shit. So he came home to a house full of babies and thats how it has been ever since. Our entire relationship has been deployments and babies and Army. So now here we are and we are working on getting to know each other. Sometimes it's hard because there are never enough hours in the day... but sometimes it's exciting.

And lastly... we are working on fixing our health. For me it's a pretty big deal. My body is unhealthy... I need to improve my health and my weight. For Keith, he would like to lose weight and gain muscle. For Gage, we are working on making sure the food he takes in and burns off is worthwhile. For Bo we will be continuing his high protein, high fat diet. For Cote... well she is still in the clear!!!

Fixing Fixing Fixing.... I say, "let's do this now!"

Rachel.... Take One!

Here I am, in all my glory. I have been slowly making changes in my life for about a month now. As of right now... I have cut pop out of my life almost entirely. Water water water water all day.